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Hardship is spice of life.
Today, the day was quite fine but when night comes, I started to feel so sad, so upset, so gloomy.
First because of my YBR. It was quite hard to apply, with all the forms and checklist, and I have no idea on how to settle it down. Thank God I have Mr Am beside to help me with the stuff. But still, there was something happened that made me so upset. I took about half an hour to calm down and be relaxed after that thing happened but fortunately, as the adage goes, whenever you are down seek for Allah and you will feel relieved again. And that was what I did. And then I see a clearer view of the solutions to my problem. Alhamdulillah. It's not a big matter actually, but it depends on how you perceived the matter I guess.
But then, at about 7PM, something happened again. I was trying to pack up my bag for the class tomorrow when I suddenly realized that I had my bottle water leaked in my bag. And even worse, the whole note book which I took few days to make it beautiful, became wet due to the leaking. With all the printed quotes paper were wet, and its color faded to all white paper that I spare for writing notes. I was very frustrated and disappointed with myself. Feeling so so so gloomy till I just wanna escape from everything and sleep.
When I discovered that my book was wet, I refrained myself from crying since Mr Am was there in my room. We were just settled down with the YBR problem but then came another problem. I'm not going to make him upset anymore so I just refrained myself from crying and then went to pray for Maghrib prayer.
But somehow, I cant control myself when I was praying. The tears were suddenly burst out and I was crying during the whole prayer huhuhuhuhuhu. I was just very sad, upset since all my effort were wasted. I felt like the whole world fall on me and I'm dying, crying for help, however from no one. But then I felt relieved, when Mr Am called me when he saw I was crying. He said nothing, do nothing, but I dont know why it makes me calm and I tend to forget all my problems.
When I saw his face, I felt so pity. My problem is not as big as his. I know that he has bigger, more problems than me so why should I cry over something that is not useful at all and add more problem to his pain? Tomorrow, 19th September 2016, is his birthday and I think we should be happy, not feeling gloomy like this.
It took a while before we recover from our sadness. We planned for a birthday event tomorrow. Hopefully that can cherish ourselves back. I love him. When I have him, I may not have everything in this world, but having him is far worth than anything in this world. :)
Thanks for reading :)
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Honey in My Life ♥
  Mr Am
My protector, my guardian, my teacher, my boss, my everything. Introvert just like me, but kind of strict and fierce person. Easily got pissed off with small things, cute in his own way. He is a part time student with his part time job as a software engineer and market analyzer & trader. Very attached to me hihi, which can be good, but sometimes can be bad because he cant do cleaning or stuffs like that, or even taking care of himself without my help. Loves rabbit and cats, or I can say that he is an animal lover with a sweet and gentle heart. He can be strict but he can be sweet at the same time. I love him so much. Cant imagine my life without him.
Ammi Abah Buah hati, permata hati, jantung, kesayangan, sweethearts & segalanyalah. They raised me. Jaga diri I bagaikan menatang minyak yang penuh. They gave me everything, and now it's my turn to give back. One day I will bring them to Makkah, I will give them everything that they want, I will take care of them just like how they took care of me. Sayang sangat kedua-duanya. Cant imagine my life without them. How I wish I can pay all the kindness, love that they had give me. Please ya Allah, take my life before them. I just cant live without the presence of them & Mr Am. Semua jasa mereka, hanya Allah yang mampu balas. Semoga syurga yang tertinggi dikurniakan buat mereka. Semoga mereka sentiasa sihat, murah rezeki dan dipermudahkan segala urusan hidup. Love them so much!
My Cute Little Tiny Babies♥
Pop
This is my baby. Pop. Naming so bcs of she keep pooping around. She is an anggora bunny. Adopted her when she was just 1+months old. At first, the old owner told that she is a 'boy'. But then days by days we finally realize that she is a girl. Plan ruined bcs we decided to adopt two babies rabbits so that when they grow they can be mated together. But then........ Lets have a lesbian rabbits then.
Bulus
Meanwhile this is Mr Am's bunny. Bulus. She is a teddy bear bunny. As I said before, we have planned like, I'm going to have a boy bunny meanwhile Mr Am is going to have a girl bunny. But unluckily, both of us have the girl bunnies. At first, we do know that Bulus is a girl because she has that girlish look, but she is so stubborn. When I touch her at first, she was quite aggressive. But Pop was quite tame. That's why I chose to make Pop as mine and give Bulus to Mr Am. But now it's changed. Pop is a very hyperactive girl. And Bulus is so so timid. So coward and so inactive. Put her outside and she will climb back to her house. Pop? Will do that too but takes time. She will wander around first and when is tired, she will climb to her house on herself. But that usually takes more time. 6-7 hours maybe? Or more than one night.... Or never.
Babies
When both of them were still babies. Mata sepet lagi time ni. Muka innocent gila. Best friend forever tu. (Sorang tu taktau yang sorang tu lagi menyampah dengan dia sebab asyik 'menempek' kat dia)
 Hardship is spice of life.
First because of my YBR. It was quite hard to apply, with all the forms and checklist, and I have no idea on how to settle it down. Thank God I have Mr Am beside to help me with the stuff. But still, there was something happened that made me so upset. I took about half an hour to calm down and be relaxed after that thing happened but fortunately, as the adage goes, whenever you are down seek for Allah and you will feel relieved again. And that was what I did. And then I see a clearer view of the solutions to my problem. Alhamdulillah. It's not a big matter actually, but it depends on how you perceived the matter I guess.
But then, at about 7PM, something happened again. I was trying to pack up my bag for the class tomorrow when I suddenly realized that I had my bottle water leaked in my bag. And even worse, the whole note book which I took few days to make it beautiful, became wet due to the leaking. With all the printed quotes paper were wet, and its color faded to all white paper that I spare for writing notes. I was very frustrated and disappointed with myself. Feeling so so so gloomy till I just wanna escape from everything and sleep.
When I discovered that my book was wet, I refrained myself from crying since Mr Am was there in my room. We were just settled down with the YBR problem but then came another problem. I'm not going to make him upset anymore so I just refrained myself from crying and then went to pray for Maghrib prayer.
But somehow, I cant control myself when I was praying. The tears were suddenly burst out and I was crying during the whole prayer huhuhuhuhuhu. I was just very sad, upset since all my effort were wasted. I felt like the whole world fall on me and I'm dying, crying for help, however from no one. But then I felt relieved, when Mr Am called me when he saw I was crying. He said nothing, do nothing, but I dont know why it makes me calm and I tend to forget all my problems.
When I saw his face, I felt so pity. My problem is not as big as his. I know that he has bigger, more problems than me so why should I cry over something that is not useful at all and add more problem to his pain? Tomorrow, 19th September 2016, is his birthday and I think we should be happy, not feeling gloomy like this.
It took a while before we recover from our sadness. We planned for a birthday event tomorrow. Hopefully that can cherish ourselves back. I love him. When I have him, I may not have everything in this world, but having him is far worth than anything in this world. :)
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